Afraid of Your Dreams
What are your dreams? Not in the sense of the movie your brain showed you while sleeping, but your goals in life. Get married? Start a family? Travel the world? Write a book? The list can go on. But have you ever come close to meeting one of those goals, and been scared out of your mind? This subject has been on my heart for quite some time, but it has been more real in the past couple of months.
Let me tell you about one of my goals. Never in a million years would I have thought I would be in this position today, but here I am. It has been a dream of mine to travel the world, not caring about sharing the Gospel. I just wanted to get out of my "sleepy old town." But that never happened because I was busy waiting tables or running a retail store. Or maybe a was a silly young girl who didn't have her priorities straight. A couple years later, I went to a Christian conference called Passion. Through one of the speakers, I felt called to go on a mission trip. Not long after that, I was traveling to a foreign country I hadn't previously heard of. The good ole country of Serbia. :)
Fast forward 3 years, and my goal now is to serve the Lord wherever He wants me. But I feel a special calling toward the people of the Balkan Region, Serbia in particular. Many of you may already know this, but I have been accepted into a Discipleship Training School located in Croatia. I will learn how to serve the people over there better, among other things while I am there. There will be a 3-month lecture phase in Croatia, and then another 2-3 months will be spent doing outreach in other countries in the region, putting into practice what we have learned. This is such a wonderful and exciting opportunity for me, and I can't wait until I get to go over there this March!
With that being said, I have wanted this for such a long time, that now that it is actually happening, it is a little scary. Don't get me wrong, I have faith that God will provide in ways I didn't even know I needed, but I am nervous, too. This is uncharted territory for me, and it can be overwhelming sometimes. Leaving everything I know to go to a foreign land where nothing is familiar is just a little daunting. But it is much more exciting than it is scary, especially when you have so many friends and family who are willing to help and support you!
I really can't wait for this new chapter in my life. God is going to show me so many things, and I know I will come back a better, more godly woman. Even though it is easier to dream something than put it into action, it is so worth it in the end to follow your dreams! God has put them on your heart for a reason. Don't let that waste away. If you want to learn a new language, don't just wish you could. Buy Rosetta Stone and learn something new! Who knows, maybe you will visit that country one day. If you want to write a book, get started! You aren't getting any younger, and you might help someone in the process. What I am getting at, don't get in the way of your own dreams. It will be scary at first, but it will be worth it!
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7